Searching

What is happening to me?

I’ve come to realize it’s not a question of if, but when you’ll return

You’re like a soldier at war that I wait upon

And my heart grows more bitter as you love me and leave

I regret meeting you, but where would I be if I hadn’t?

How could you have such an impact on my heart?

My grudge increases at the thought of the strain you’ve put on my soul

Bringing this anxiety I feel not knowing when I’ll see you again

And it seems it’s all for your own pleasure

As you count the days and you scheme your ways

Why do you want to torture me like this?

I’m the one who promised you everything, but you just couldn’t take it

It seems clear you don’t want me so why do you keep coming back?

It couldn’t be me, so what is it you’re searching for?

- Desiree' Magee